A number of years ago I bought a "journal" book entitled, "A Mother's Legacy.....Your Life Story in Your Own words". The sub-title is "A Loving Gift for your children". Over the years I've added a little here and there. But now, with time on my hands and needing to reflect back on what I have, what I've lost and most of all, what I've gained over these 67 years I spent a good portion of today writing in this journal.
The book is set up with questions. Each question is a reflection of how you got to this point in your life. For example.."what was the silliest thing you ever did? Or, "When did you have your first date? To, "What is one of the most difficult choices you ever had to make, or the hardest thing you ever had to do?" These are not so easy to answer when you sit down and think about it. I wanted to be honest and open with my children and, in the end, with myself. Since this journal is for my children, I won't share alot of my postings here. What I will share is what amazing things have happened to me as well as who helped me to be the person I am today.
For me, my life truly began when I had my children. There are lots of things you can say about motherhood. Some, not so positive (just kidding kids). Some things awe inspiring and some just down right beautiful. I think about how stressful life was when one of my kids cried and I didn't know why or how to stop it. Then I think back to that first smile or when they first called me "Mommy". How proud can one person be when you go to "open school night" and hear what a "pleasure it is to have your daughter/son in my class". The graduations from nursery school through college. I know I've left off all the sleepless night waiting for them to come home from being out with friends or the "teenage years". I left these off for a reason. I promised myself this would be a POSITIVE posting. :)
I will be the first to admit I didn't do everything right. As much as we think we know it all when it comes to being a parent, if we're honest with ourselves, we're far from perfect. For those of you in my age bracket, just ask your kids. I hope they'll say, "you didn't do so bad".
My life took many twists and turns, some good, some not-so-good. One of the best twists my life took was meeting my best friend, my life partner, my lover, my husband, Larry. He has been my rock. We've gone through, and continue to go through some ups and downs. Fortunately the ups far outway the downs.
I've specifically left off grandmother-hood. That I'm saving for my next post. Just let me leave you with this thought.....Being a grandmother is the best revenge!! See you next time.
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